In April of 2005, I got pregnant with my son. Having been there, and done that once already in my life I was understandably a little overwrought.
On July 4th of the same year, I resurrected an old childhood friendship. My relationship with Justin was burning out rapidly, even though I was pregnant with my son I accepted that he and I could be no more. I had been staring so long at a door that was closing that I neglected to catch sight of a door that was opening. While I laid to rest the remains of a relationship, someone else was also. Heather and Kevin, then Kevin and I. Betrayal is about as awful as imagined, but for all parties involved sometimes it's unavoidable. The part of antagonist is also agonizing, do I betray my friend or myself by rejecting how passionate Judas' kiss is on my cheek. How sweetly Judas whispered evil disguised as pleasure in my ear. I abandoned all logical thought, and morality. I flung myself into the embrace of Judas and we were one in treachery. Seduction is a powerful emotion, once my vision was clear I could see how badly I had hurt a priceless friendship. Kevin, though he was unparalleled in my mind, was and still is a degenerate. I'm still trying to right the wrongs. There are no regrets in life, just lessons. So, no, I don't regret what happened. Because life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood.
Still, I digress.
Duncan Lee was born on January 17, 2007 at 10: 28 AM. He weighed in at 7 pounds, 8 ounces, and was 19 inches long. His birth was a complete surprise for my family and I, because we were expecting a girl. He's turned out to be the sweetest little surprise in so many ways.
On July 4th of the same year, I resurrected an old childhood friendship. My relationship with Justin was burning out rapidly, even though I was pregnant with my son I accepted that he and I could be no more. I had been staring so long at a door that was closing that I neglected to catch sight of a door that was opening. While I laid to rest the remains of a relationship, someone else was also. Heather and Kevin, then Kevin and I. Betrayal is about as awful as imagined, but for all parties involved sometimes it's unavoidable. The part of antagonist is also agonizing, do I betray my friend or myself by rejecting how passionate Judas' kiss is on my cheek. How sweetly Judas whispered evil disguised as pleasure in my ear. I abandoned all logical thought, and morality. I flung myself into the embrace of Judas and we were one in treachery. Seduction is a powerful emotion, once my vision was clear I could see how badly I had hurt a priceless friendship. Kevin, though he was unparalleled in my mind, was and still is a degenerate. I'm still trying to right the wrongs. There are no regrets in life, just lessons. So, no, I don't regret what happened. Because life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood.
Still, I digress.
Duncan Lee was born on January 17, 2007 at 10: 28 AM. He weighed in at 7 pounds, 8 ounces, and was 19 inches long. His birth was a complete surprise for my family and I, because we were expecting a girl. He's turned out to be the sweetest little surprise in so many ways.
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